It’s better to be hurt than to hurt others. Which is why you are going through all of this.
i had my blood taken yesterday at the doctor and now the area isnt just bruised its like this super dark black-red and the skin is slightly raised and its a little bumpy around it so i might be goin to the er lol
i have sent accidentally sent snapchats mid string of convsersation to people i didnt mean to send them to like 3 or 4 times today and its so embarrassing ooooooooooh ym god
tries to do things: becomes overridden with anxiety
doesn’t do things: becomes overridden with anxiety
the united states of america is fucking horrific and repulsive and people have every right to shit talk it but leave fat people out of it and stop acting like having fat people makes the usa a bad place, when you could focus on idk literally everything else
omfg this was bound to happen i just KNEW IT
not too sure what to call this, i just happen to really like coats. the trolls will be done relatively soon-ish
He was not happy, he was not sad.
He was just, merely, tired.
O y a s u m i . . . (2/2)
if my posts about feeling bad/depressed make you feel bad too please unfollow me because its gonna be like this for a while probably and i know how hard it can be to read posts about someone feelin depressed when you’re also feeling depressed it can make it worse a lot of the time so if thats the case dont feel bad for unfollowing
things i did not have to expect to have to do today: do everything for myself at the doctor because my parents apparently cant legally do that anymore and having to call a lady back on the phone about my bloodwork when i am like deathly fuckin afraid of talking on the phone
ahaha yeah my feelings for that character have totally calmed down [sees picture of them] ahaha never mind. aha. ha. i lied. i fucking lied. i lied so much ahahaha i’m a fucking liar i have no control in my life ahaha help me
ONE EPISODE LEFT somebody wipe my tears
my mom has taken two weeks to make an appointment for me for the doctor for chest pains ive been having for like two months on and off (it isnt affected by my heartbeat or breathing and its above the boob area and there arent any lumps or redness or swelling?? i think its really fucking weird) and im fnally going but im not even going to a doctor doctor like i dont even have an appointment its just like a walk-in clinic place which probably cant do anything for me like wtf my parents obviously rly care about my well being
having the small bits of increased independence that i have in college now is like scary and nice at the same time like i have an online class that im taking which is like entirely my own responsibility to do and i just went to the testing center all on my own for that class and handled all the information on my own which feels like a really big step for me and feels good and even just sitting alone on campus knowing theres only one person here really that im dependent on but theyre off doing their own thing is kinda cool and scary. but even just that much alone is almost too much for me and the fact that my parents expect me to have a job on top of what im doing already is so scary i could not handle having that much on my own shoulders all at once right now but they keep pushing me and im already so overwhelmed like. i am a small child i feel like a kid amongst people who have all their shit together like im in classes with people who are like in their 30s-40s who have families and jobs and classes all at once and i feel lazy and weak and like im not doing enough even though i cant handle anymore and my health is really bad lately and i just dont know what to do with myself